i'm sorry
i din mean to disappoint you
i never knew that u'd feel this way
if i knew i would never have done anything
i'm sorry darrel
i'd rather you be angry at me
than to be disappointed at me
disappointed with me
i'm sorry
it really hurts to know that you are disappointed with me
dont you trust me?
why cant you trust me on this?
i'm not at naive as you think i am
i know what i am doing
and even clearer
i know one thing
and the one thing is that i love you, alot, and no one can ever take your place.
to me, u're very speical,
you're the one i love and the one who i know i can turn to at all times.
the one who i can trust with everything
my heart, my soul and my life.
and i'm sure that you know that
then why is it that you doubt me on this?
y do u doubt that to me you're very special.
that you're different from all the rest
and they'll never compare to you
but for come reason i cannot get,
you dont see that
you dont believe that
why cant you believe in simple things like friendship.
i've haven't had many frens in my whole life
i'm just trying to make more frens
start in uni
though its quite late
but i'm trying
why cant you be more supportive of my making new frens?
trust me that there's all to it
though i happen to spend more time with them, not really because i want to but cus we have so many things together..
and i spend little time with you
doesn't mean that you matter less to me
its not something that i want to either
just that we have no choice now
you've changed
its as if army has made u much more cynical about things
and it hurts me to know that
but i cant do anything to help
sometimes
it feels like u're changing
like u're drifting away from me
like you dont trust me anymore
it hurts
it hurts me alot
i thought relationships are about trusting one another
no matter what, believing in the best of the other person
to me.
u're special.
and i love u.
and only you.
i dont know if u believe it anot
but thats the truth.
all i can ask you to do is to trust me.
and think.
if u weren't special to me
would i have spent the last 3 years 4 months and 14 days with you?
would i still want to spend the rest of my life with you?
for now,
i still do.
but if this keeps up.
i wonder,
if it would be too tiring to continue like that
me having to keep proving to you that i love you, that you matter to me
to fight against you cynical side, to show you my point of view
to get u to believe it
to trust me on it
it hurts all the time
it hurts to argue with you
its tiring.
i still want you.
i still love you.
i still trust you.
but at times
i wonder if you feel the same anymore...